One of my best friend's recently introduced me to a song that has touched me on so many levels. It's called "I Was Created For This" by Tweet. The entire song is really inspirational (especially if you know Tweet's life story), but one verse really stuck out to me:
"So different I know that I don't fit in
But I'm chosen and I believe that's what it is.
You gave me a song for me to tell the story
And my life's poured out all in for your glory."
For so long I've struggled with trying to keep up with my peers. I mean, if we're being honest, a lot of us are struggling with this. It is so easy to compare yourself to others and to worry yourself about fitting in. It is also easy to tell the world how different and original we are, but I am sure a lot of us have our moments where we battle with not being like everyone else. I'll admit, I never realized that I was trying to fit in...I just knew I was going through changes. Now that I look back on my behavior (changing the way I looked, the way I talked and the way I acted), I see that it was all signs of me trying to keep up with everyone else...trying to mimic what everyone deemed as being "cool." There were times when I would feel so lonely because I didn't seem to fit in with those that I hung around (which also taught me that I needed to surround myself with more like-minded people). I wanted to feel "liked" and included, but instead I felt distant from everyone...including GOD.
It sounds elementary, but even as adults, we sometimes focus on fitting in without even knowing it.
It's normal...but not healthy. Listening to this song kind of woke me up and allowed me to see that I was created for a special purpose in life. Trying to fit in will not allow me to live my life in the way that God intended for me to live it. If He wanted us all to be the same, He would've created us all the same. He's given each of us a unique look and many unique gifts that makes us who we are.
It has been difficult trying to accept who I am instead of trying to become like everyone else, but the older I get, the more I see that it is necessary. It is necessary in order for me to be truly happy and filled with joy. When I was going through my phases of trying to fit in, I felt empty. It seemed like no matter what I did, there was always a void that I could not fill. I literally changed myself completely just so I could have friends...and STILL felt alone. One day, it hit me that I will always feel this way if I do not embrace who I am and walk in MY purpose, not someone else's. At the end of the day, God isn't concerned with how well we can imitate others, but how well we can be who He created us to be.
We are chosen to play a specific role in this world in order to bring God glory.
I am different. I am "fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14)." God created me to be unlike anyone else and that's what makes me special. That's what makes us all special. It is so important to remind ourselves us this daily because we are living in a world that likes to tell us who we should be and how we should live our lives. If we allow this to happen, we will lose our true identity in Christ. I am proud to say that I don't fit it...and I don't want to. It's actually pretty boring being like everyone else, haha. My prayer is that I continue to embrace what makes me unique and that I blossom into the woman that God has created me to be. Why fit in when we were all born to stand out?
"I'm gonna be all that you created me to be." -Tweet
Listen to "I Was Created For This" here: