When God Just Wasn't Enough...
I never thought I would admit this, but there was a point in my life where I thought my relationship with God just wasn't enough for me to get through my low points. I doubted Him and did not even realize it. Relying on other things, I put my trust in the world and not Him...
I grew up in a Christian home, so I have always been taught to put God first in whatever I do or go through. I grew up very uninterested in things that my "curious" peers were interested in. I prided myself on being a "good girl." However, in my early college days, I found myself lost (like most college kids away from home for the first time). I hit several low points and began to seek pleasure in worldy things. The days when I felt the worse were the days where I felt the most drawn to negative activities and negative people. At that time, I felt like my life was at a standstill, so I focused my attention on all of the wrong things.
How could a Christian "good" girl ever turn away from God? The truth is, we all have moments in our lives where we get confused about God's timing in our lives. We question God about the situations that we are facing. Why am I not satisfied in life? Why am I just alive and not living? Why do I feel so insecure? Why don't I have what others have? Why don't I look a certain way? Why do I feel so empty, so unfulfilled?
It was never said that the road of life would be easy. That statement alone is so hard for me to understand even to this day. One thing we know for sure, is that God will see us through. God is the answer to all of our questions. God is the solution to all of our problems. God is the friend that we long for. God is the satisfaction that we are missing. God is the very thing that will fill the void that we may feel. God is the beginning AND the end. GOD IS ENOUGH.
Hard times will come and we will feel discouraged at various points in our lives, BUT we must remember that simple phrase from above. GOD IS ENOUGH. I cannot stress that enough. He is everything that we need and will get us through anything. "Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean NOT on your own understanding." You will not be fulfilled with sex, alcohol, "friends," partying or in other words, running from God. The world will not save you; only God can. I am still learning to lean on Him for everything instead of taking matters into my own hands. Life is an everyday process, but I can guarantee you that no matter where you are in life; GOD IS ENOUGH!
P.S. GOD IS ENOUGH; just in case you didn't get that the first few times! :)